“Light at the End of the Tunnel”
I recall when I lived in Delaware having to make the
trek to Columbia MD for training sessions. This required going through
Baltimore and the Ft. McHenry Tunnel. I hated this tunnel! Driving through it
was the longest 60 seconds of my life! However, I truly learned to appreciate “the
light at the end of the tunnel.” I am
somewhat driving through it right now.
I have been blessed that most of my 50 years of life have
been in the light. Yes, I have dealt with my share of sorrow. I am reminded by
some lyrics of one of my favorite songs by Gladys Knight titled You're The Best Thing That Ever Happened To
Me. A few of the lyrics are:
“I've had my share of life's ups and downs
But fate's been kind, the downs have been few
I guess, you could say that I've been lucky
Well, I guess you could say that it's all because of you…”
Being knocked down literally to my knees by the unexpected
diagnosis of MS a few years ago sent me straight into darkness…sinking into the
abyss…a depth that I have never known.
It was my minister, Dr. David Jones, Jr. that “threw me the
life raft” when he explained to me that I was experiencing the “Stages of
Grief.” I was grieving the “death of life as I had known it,” and experiencing
Denial-Anger-Bargaining with God – Depression…striving to get to Acceptance and
adapting a “new normal.” This was profound to me. I now had an explanation of
what I was experiencing. I could now better wrap my arms around it to move
forward.
During this time, my employer laid me off. I had a lot of
time on my hand…most of which I spent in silence.
“It’s amazing how loud silence can
be.” – Janette McGowen
The internal whisper in my spirit kept repeating itself over
and over:
“Write.” “Write.” “Write.”
For once in my hard-headed, independent, control-freak life,
I decided to be obedient. And the flood gates have burst open…
The journey continues to be a trying one. But I will keep
moving…skinned knees…scars…bruises…fatigue…fear…until I see the light at the
end of the tunnel.
Wait?…do I see a speck of light?....
Hold on….now I see a glimmer….
Oh…now I see a single light beam….
There…There in the distance, I see more light….
I see it! I see
it! Could it be?…….
#JustKeepMoving
#TooCloseToStopNow
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